A New Month....

The following lyrics are from "Stronger" by Mandisa...

Hey, heard you were up all night
Thinking about how your world ain't right
And you wonder if things will ever get better
And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather

Oh, don't hang your head
It's gonna end
God's right there
Even if it's hard to see Him
I promise you that He still cares

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you ...

Try and do the best you can
Hold on and let Him hold your hand
And go on and fall into the arms of Jesus
Oh, lift your head it's gonna end
God's right there
Even when you just can't feel Him
I promise you that He still cares

'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger

I heard this song today on the radio...the words seemed to speak just to me...something I needed for sure this weekend.  Although I don't think the pain from losing my Ezra will ever go away, it will eventually become more bearable and I will have grown from the experience.  I just have to keep telling myself that.

We went to O'Charleys today and this young couple came in carrying a sleeping baby in a carrier.  I said a silent prayer that they would be seated across the restaurant from us...but they ended up being right beside us.  At first they put him in one of the baby seat holders and he was literally a foot away from our table.  But then they moved him to the seat beside the mom.  I honestly don't think I could have eaten a bite if he had been that close.  He was about the size that I think Ezra would have been now. 

I miss him so much. 

Mommy loves you, sweet Ezra.